I have been away. Maybe not physically, but mentally. Got away from making comments on my blog but I will try to reestablish a habit. A habit can be cemented into your brain if you do it continuously, frequently and for at least a month or 2. For now this is enough. My life is good, and a new year is approaching. Much to look forwards to. Blessings to All this Christmas and a Happy New Year
Life is not a script you can play out. All the lines memorized. All the scenes known beforehand. Wow wouldn’t that be nice. Not so though. I do play out what I want to happen in my noisey brain but it never plays out the way I envisioned it. If you can take it as it comes don’t accept that it is happening to you (whatever it is) because you are defeated but because there is something better in store. If I can remeber that when my expectations get too high. This Lord or something better!
Flying does and will always amaze me. One hour and ten minutes and I am in a different Province, different climate. I’m in Edmonton on a Church Conference and this is my first. Always nervous about expressing myself and in a conference setting it is especially straining. But of course I didn’t make a fool of myself and I didn’t die or something worse. The conference lead off with a ceremony of what we bring and what we offer in this conference, one word or just a few that summarizes. I chose "opennes". At any thing that is new to me I try to be receptive to what I can learn. Our lives are "expressive" a constant giving and receiving. Today I am ready to receive. Tomorrow will be the ebb and flow of giving and receiving.
Heading out in the morning for a conference being held in Edmonton Alberta. Association of Unity Churches Canada to be exact. This is my first conference and I am certainly more than a little nervous about this. That is OK it is in fact common for people to be nervous about doing something that is unfamiliar to them. I used to see it as a critical flaw in me. Today I just try to take it one day at a time, be as present as I can be and contribute if I feel I have something to contribute. What more can we ask of ourselves. Will try to maintain a few posts about the conference in the coming days. Bon voyage to myself
I’m back, but not with a vengeance. Just nurturing myself for a few days.
I just came back from Ikea. What a wonderful place to go for a walk. I try to walk every day and I figure it might as well be interesting each time. If you have been in Ikea you will notice they have the path layed out for you, complete with arrows. Much like the yellow brick road. Well we went against the flow, backwards so to speak. It felt like I was getting away with something. I was waiting for an emloyee to jump out and shout “your going the wrong way”. Well almost. But it is interesting that if we deviate from what we consider “the norm” whether it is driving to and from work a different route or sitting in a different chair in the living room or dining room, it gives your brain a slight jolt and you wonder if something is wrong. There is nothing wrong but you are waking up your brain. Try it. Do something differently, It is exercise for the brain and will help keep you alert as you grow older.
Received my first comment today, first that was not spam. A short message that tells me someone is listening. What it really is about is that what we have to say, how we feel, what we have to offer really matters to someone, anyone or at the very least, someone understands. But there is a very important aspect to this and that is “we have to be open and understanding of what other’s have to offer” Life is never a one way street. Our nature is to be a part of a pack. In the pack we share, listen, and create for the benefit of the pack and ultimately for the benefit of ourselves. I have always been a “relationship junkie”. For many years I was a complete failure at it but as the strength of my own character grew and my understanding of myself and what i came to the table with became clear and with it acceptance of “me” relationships became stronger, lasted longer and more fullfilling. How did I get all that from a comment? I don’t know but its not as important as my willingness to share.
My first flickr photo. It is a picture of the small garden at the back of our church and a wonderful spot to contemplate where I have been where I am and where I am now. My Flickr Photo
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITISH COLUMBIA!
Some say I’m having a bad hair day, I’m saying I am having a bad ear day. Tinnitus is the affliction of the many (they say over 50 million in USA) and yet it has very little support from the medical society. One clinic in my city has a two year waiting list. I have tinnitus at a severe level. It can be dibilitating if you let it. For more information the American Tinnitus Association is a very good resource. Tinnitus can be a low ringing that is barely noticable except at night to a very loud ringing, or tinging that can reach 85 decibles or more. Mine is loud. The key to surviving such an affliction is dealing with the anxiety. Sound is not likely to kill you but anxiety will destroy your life. I work on the anxiety and on amany days it is not a problem. This just happens to be a day when it is. A deep breath, slow exhale, an ocean wave and rustling trees. I already feel better.
My first attempt at Form
A GIFT OF WINGS
The
Paper
folds, careful
in it’s consideration
of wings. Simple design, not
in competion with starlings, who
group along lines in anticipation of
wind, or a sleek silver jet with a wispy
trail. But a memory of learning that a small
child could touch the feeling
that can give, for one brief
moment, a gift that wasn’t
theirs.
